carpe diem

been fine, been fun, been matured by this experiences...

smakin lama smakin sadar, betapa posisi aku yang sekarang benar-benar di tengah2 banyaknya pintu yang harus dipilih. di balik pintu inilah masa depan aku membentang...unfortunately, aku gak bisa ngintip ke dalamnya dulu sebelum bener2 ngebuka pintu itu... so, it's one opportunity i cannot failed...coz we all only have one opportunity to choose only one door...

what's the better way to decide which one to open??

LOL,, =D

gak seserius itu seh, cuma renungan kecil aza,, betapapun nyantainya seorang GW, masih z takut bikin keputusan besar buat hidup... mungkin karna gak terbiasa kali y,,,

all this time, i've just let the life guided me, not vice versa...

all this time the motto of my life has been: "cherish and enjoy today... Yesterday is gone, tomorrow is not coming yet"

think it's time for me think this way: "think about tomorrow today, or u'll screw urself up"

so, people... let's start think about whatchu wanna do tomorrow while still enjoying today...

                            

Unwritten

UNWRITTEN

By. Natasha Bedingfield

I am unwritten, can’t read my mind

I’m undefined, I’m just beginning

Depends in my hands, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before u

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the world’s

That u can’t find and reach

For something in the distance so close u can almost taste it

Release ur inner visions

Feel the rain on your skin,

No one else can feel it for u,

Only u can let it in

No one else, no one else can speak

The words from ur lips

Chance urself in what’s unspoken

Live ur life with arms wide open

Today is when your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

I’m in love with this song since the very first time I heard it. It really reflects all my thought about life and what I should do about it. I’m trying to interprete this song, and as you know (or if u don’t know, please pay attention to this!!) in literature, any kinds of interpretations are welcome. It doesn’t matter if u have different thought with me, it just the matter of paradigm. So, please, if u have opinion or anything else, say it gently. And thank u very much to be very patient read this long and boring introductory paragraph. He…he…   ^_^.  Critics on my mistyped and grammatical mistakes are unacceptable. I have my lecturers done those painful jobs……….. =( 

“Sometimes in life, we just have to accept what we get”. That’s a really good proverb that I forget in which books or movies or music lyrics I heard. The point is that we, human beings, cannot control everything that happens in our life. We can only ‘accept’ it. Sounds hard??? Believe me, I know how hard it is living that kind of life……….

When I struggle with so many problems and don’t know how to solve it, no one was there to support me, none of those b*** motivation books can help me either, and all I have to do is just simply ‘accept‘ it???!!

In fact, what I do is skedaddle from those problems, pretend that there’s nothing happen, and pent-up millions of anger and disappointment inside, waiting for it to erupt like a time bomb……………………

I know I don’t even have the right to question God of what had happened to me… No, I really don’t have that courage to do it………

To me, that song somehow can be considered as some kind of reminder to ourselves in living this tough life, where we, as a human being, will face this kind of commonly-faced situation.

So, this song tells us about how u must not afraid of being who u r, or not afraid of what future’s gonna hold,,,, you live your life today,,, yesterday is gone, and tomorrow isn’t come yet, so u only have one day, which is today and you have to live it happily because, u know what?? U r what u r and u must not be worried of it, and that what u r right now isn’t anything at all,,, you can always chance urself into a better way and also u can be whatever u want 2 be… and only u who can decide what u gonna be in the future.

ApalaH aRti sEbuAh NaMa.....!!!!

Ade kate pepatah : Aplah arti sebuah nama? Ternyata bukan pepatah aja looh, nyang ngomong kayak begitu! Shakespeare dlm drama-ny nyang mungkin paling populer, Romeo&Juliet juga mengemukakan hal itu..........

Well, klo menurut guw sih, Ratih Widya Ningrum, Nama tuch penting bgt buat mengungkapkan identitas, menyemangati smangat p'ukuhan jati diri, dan jlas ngebedain antara satu orang dgn orang lain..........

Guw inget bgt yah, wktu kcil guw prnah ngrasa ga nyaman ma nama guw sndiri, knapa BoNyok guw gak namain Guw Elizabeth ato Rachel ato ape kek, nyang keren en t'kesan bule gitu! tapi kan guw masi orok n blom bisa protes ttg p'ajuan nama yg 'aneh' itu, boro2 protes, ngomong aja lom bisa! jadi pastilah mreka(Bokap-Nyokap Guw) punya mksud sndiri d'balik pemilihan nama itu. Mungkin (meski guw sndiri gak yakin), nama guw sbenernya artiny dahsyat bgt, sesuatu yg lbh b'harga drpada nama2 laen(hehehehe......) makany skrg guw dah pasrah aja, lagian klo ganti nama di klurahan biayanya kan gak sedikit!

dari semangat bangga-akan-nama-guw-sendiri inilah menginspirasi guw untuk ngasi nama ke semua benda punya guw, misalnya notebook kesayangan guw, guw namain 'Si Yayang', trus dlu guw pernah dpt hadiah ultah, radio kecil bulet kayak bentuk smiley gitu looh! namanya 'Nuning 'Ai' , trus henpon guw yang dulu (merekny Philips) namanya 'Si Bohay', trus ada lagi gelas loetjoe ksayangan guw namanya 'Si MuuMuu' soalnya ada gambar sapini yang lucu bgt!,guw juga ngasi nama ke barang2punya konco2 Guw, 'aki-aki gepeng' nama penggaris besi ksyayangannya Dona, trus boneka sapinya elin guw namain********** de el el

so, Apalah arti sebuah nama?

People are Change,,, So What??

It was a nice day. Just a very perfect day to spend the whole day with the one you loved… but for me, since now I’m being solo, that one means my eight-closest friends. This was, of course, a very rare situation because some of them go to out-of-town university…

So… we arranged this meeting. I remembered had that butterflies in my stomach coz I really missed them so much and I did want to meet them… I thought it was gonna be just perfect day for me, I mean, for us… but in just a moment , I’ll found out that I was wrong…

When I arrived there, at one of my friend’s house, I immediately came toward them, hugged them, told them how much I missed them… it went just perfect until…. One of my friend told me that there was something serious they wanted to discuss about… I agreed…

Then one of them started to get out everything that they have kept in their head. Others agreed her. It seemed to me that they had been practicing it before… it then started to feel like it was a trial for me…

The point is… they thought that I was radically drastically changed. To be honest, I didn’t realize any of it until she told me about it and made me think whether their suspicion was true or not. Then, I realize… I was, I mean, I am changed, and so what?? If I’m changed for the better not for the worse,  then what?? Do u (all people around the globe that happen to have no jobs other that read my blog), see something awkward here? Cause u know what?? If u don’t know, EVERYBODY IN THIS PLANET ARE CHANGED… your father, mother, grandpa, grandma, uncle, auntie, great grandpa, great grandma, cousins, neighbors, boyfriend, girlfriend, they all changed some time in their life…

It’s gonna be much more understandable if they had experiences in their past that make them changed, make them think that they can’t be the same person anymore, make them realize that it’s time for them to changed…

Well, u know what?? That was exactly what happened in my life! I had something happened in the past that make me won’t looked back, wanted to changed, and even got sick everytime I remember that…. If people stay stuck in their position 4 the rest of their life, means that they’re already dead… why?? Coz they know something wrong happened in their life, but they didn’t automatically stand up and fix everything…. So, that’s why people are craving to changed, because they want their life better everyday, and so do I. I’m changed coz I realize there was something wrong goin’ on in my life and I despair to fix it… so, I’m changed…

For all u people out there that still questioning my life or who I am, actually. U need to know this : I’m changed, so what?? If that change is crucial to fix my life, if that life is needed to make me a whole better person in the future. If that change is for making me not to make the same mistake as I did in the past, so what??

B.E.T.E.....................

huhuhu......................
sodara2 setanah air tercinta,
aku bete sekali karna suatu kejadian:
ni malem rencananya mo ngisi blog ini, padahal aku dah cape2 ngetik dr depok, supaya tinggal di copy ajah, tau2nya pas dah di bkasi aku baru tau klo disketna blom di format..................
ya Allah........tolonglah hambamu ini
masa mesti balik ke depok dulu sech???
bete....bete....
sebell....
padahal, so many things that i wanna share here,,,,,,,,,,


WhY I WaNnA dO tHiSs...???

WhY On Earth I WanNa Do ThisS...???

God Give Me Answer...
Coz i don't know what's in my head that i decided to do this...
it's like licking my own saliva(???)
 (b.Indonesianya = menjilat ludah sendiri....,red)

Forgive me God
for having my own arms do this...
Elin must be glad to find out about this
why???

Cause She wins..............
It's all because of her that i do this



Duuhhh........... malez deh,,
mulai skarang pengeluaran akan membengkak sehubungan dengan ter-publish-nya Blog ini

khusus banget nech buat Elin,,,
mba' jangan mrasa menang yaaa......
aku ngelakuin ini bukan karna kamu looh............
tapi cuma sebagai pembuktian dari apa yang udah kamu omomgion ke aku tentang Blog-nya Fs.

So,
thanks for making me do this
but............
Lin, lo mau kan jajanin gw klo duit gw abis buat maen fs??
;P

luv u,

ratchieee...